Wednesday, October 26, 2011
I think I'll live
So why did I quit Lexapro? when it worked and took care of my anxiety attacks? Well, for one, it is very expensive, second, because I hate taking medications. Well, am back on it now so I can live again. So tomorrow, am flying to Banff in Canada to do fly fishing. Besides golf, fishing is the only other sport I like, but I could not make myself eat fish when I was fishing, so I quit fishing. (I could not kill and eat) When I was in Europe I met the guy who owns a fly fishing company in Canada, that's where I'm going tomorrow. Here's his website.
I will post pictures when I get back, until then ya'll have a good weekend.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
2012 Preparation
"You know what their favorite foods are — it's hot wings, you know, those kinds of foods that are not necessarily top-of-the-list healthy foods, so she's no different than the rest of us," Deen said.

I've always wondered how a butt floss feels.

*Photos lifted from http://www.michellesmirror.com/
Where's the beef?
Ok, so I am always in a "starting" mode, but "never finishes anything" according to my ex-(whatever). I am thinking of not eating meat anymore. Considering that I don't eat vegetables, this is an elephantine project.
I like some fruits so I'll start with them.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Anti-capitalist, anti-America
So I think these protesters are barking at the wrong tree. Hating the rich and the capitalists? I want to see them "occupy" every politicians home and stay there until they get Washington right. Otherwise, suck it up whiners, because your actions belies your ideals. Or your intellect.
Pooping on a police car to voice out your sentiment about corporate America makes as much sense as scratching your toe because your nose is itching.
Eat the Rich? What the.. They hate "capitalism" so much so that they post their updates through their iphones, an invention that would not have been possible were it not for the capitalist, Steve Jobs. These OWS reminds me of a group of protesters composed of young, idealistic Filipinos, back when they wanted the closure of the US bases in the Philippines. They carried placards, saying, "Down with imperialist America", while they're wrapped in Levi's jeans and drinking Coca cola. And when they were not on the street protesting, they were found reclining and strategizing at Mcdonald's.
I don't make this observation lightly or say this sentiment blindly. In 1986, I was one of the hundreds of thousands of Filipinos lined up on the highway of Edsa, Philippines for the "People Power" revolution. But I can't say it was born out of patriotism, idealism or civic duty. My friend Juliet and I were there because we felt left out and hungry, because our housekeeper hastily left to join the swelling crowd. So we went and joined the festival. Now, am too old to be joining any festival, but I belong to this.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
It's not food poisoning
Monday, October 10, 2011
Distractions, A-musement
"When you read, you sit on your butt for hours, so what's the difference with watching tv?" "Just leave me alone." Is my constant answer. But the other day, I just could not resist it when she came with 2 men to install this wide and flat contraption in my bedroom. "Now, look mom, this is called Netflix video streaming. No pressure, you watch it when you want it." I admit, I heart the thing. And I heart it sooo much. But I'm not stupid, I know why Chat's doing this, she's worried I'd get into seniordating.com again if I'm not distracted.
Saturday, October 08, 2011
A woman's need.....for a working brain
Anyway, since I don't have much to talk about me, we'll talk about another "friend." This happened a while back but it stays on my mind. My friend met this guy on the dating site. He wants to meet with her, she wants to meet him and so on and so forth. The date was set for him to come to her, but the guy could not make it for some reason or another. The guy lives in another State, so she offered to go to him instead. Fine, I don't have a problem with that. As long as he pays for my plane ticket, of course. But no, she took the bus and paid for it. I asked, "Why would you do that?" "Well, if I wait for him to come, it would take a while." Fair enough.
"I am bringing my good pots and pans and my computer." She bragged. "I can understand the computer, but why the pots and pans?" "Well, I will be cooking when I get there and I want to use my good pots and pans." This conversation is getting retarded, I thought.
She got there and she finds that the guy does not have a washer and dryer and she hates it. I hope he has a servant, I told her. "No, I am doing his laundry and mine now." This woman is retarded, I thought. She stayed with him for a week and came back to tell me more horror stories. He used her computer and was on every porn sites known to mankind and animals like him. "Well, thank God, you left him. Stay away from that bum." "We plan for him to come see me in a month, or as soon as I can put together some money to get him a plane ticket." Oh mylanta, I am getting retarded, why am I even listening to this retarded woman.
Chat tells me that I attract this kind of people in my life. True. But I love it because they're agitating alright, but stimulating and energizing nonetheless. Energizing because I want to bang her head with her good pots and pans. And stimulating because I sit here squeezing my brain, trying to come up with a good reason why I should cut her some slack.
Monday, October 03, 2011
Blinders and Blinded
I have this friend whose boyfriend weighs 300 lbs, with blood sugar that is twice that number and who can eat your grocery at 3x that number. With a shoe size the circumferrence of my waist. Imagine that glob of living cells parked on her (or anyone's) couch everyday, because he doesn't have a car and no place to go because he doesn't have a job. And he doesn't have a job, because? "Because he is working on his disability application." My friend says. "What's his disability?" I asked. "He is badly diabetic." ( I wanted to tell her that if one is diabetic, badly is not a necessary adverb. )
Based on what I have seen of my friends, I wonder and even fear at times that I would become like them.....that out of desperation or loneliness, I would just pick any male just to be able to say that "I have a man." Even at 12 years old, I already knew I didn't want a man without a college degree or without a job. I have to know that he is motivated to improve himself. I did not require one to be rich because a person can be 'rich' from inheritance, but I wanted one who has the integrity and the passion to work and be a provider out of his own sweat.
So I have been pondering: At what point in my life when I would become desperate for a man? And what would cause me to be blind and not see that it's better to be single and lonely than to have a bum causing my bed spring to sag, flipping channels on my tv (thank God I don't have one) and eating my anchovies while waiting for the government check to be approved? I need to stop pondering on this question, because right now I could feel my blood alcohol level going up.