I had to make a choice and the choice is not good when it comes to my blogging. I decided that I don't want to live with my heart racing all the time and feeling anxious that is almost disabling. So I am now religiously taking Lexapro. And the result? I am so calm, I could care less about anything. Nothing and no one can impress me more than 2 seconds. It's like walking dead to the world around me. Which follows that I find nothing worth writing or talking about. In a month or two, I will be moving to my own apartment. This would help me a lot in stabilizing my thoughts and feelings. And I am hopeful I will do again, what I've always loved to do----write and read.