Signs of Christmas Blues

1. Loneliness is sitting in your patio drinking coffee looking at the red firetruck and ambulance who came for your neighbor. And instead of worrying about your neighbor, your only thought was, "Ooh, the first sign of Christmas - the color red." And the husky paramedic.

2. When You shop for gifts for yourself.

3. When You eyed the pajamas and sheepskin house shoes for him then realized you already lost him 2 years ago.

3. When You tell your friends you can't attend their parties because you're going to another party. Your own pity-party.

4. When You start missing the not- fat guy in red - the Salvation Army volunteer standing in front of the grocery store. Like you, they long for company - even for a moment.

5. When You start googling the organization that gives free hugs.

6. When You suddendly wished you are short and small so you can sit on Santa's lap at the mall.
Or just anybody's lap really. Beard or no beard.

7. When You just came home from a laughter filled party with your friends saying "You're just so funny" then you go to bed and cry all night long. Because really, that's what loneliness is.